My Stories
Monday, December 05, 2005
12:16 AM
its time to just move on, i guess.
i will stop myself from moving towards you again.
i will get u out of my mind, i will.
i dunno how long it will take.
but i will do it bravely.
it may just be trying to not think abt you instead of giving up.
but at least, i dun feel so miserable.
it will be so torturous anymore.
my life will be better.
i will bury myself in books.
at least make myself busy with everything.
i probably wont be able to get u out of my mind.
but, i wont disturb u anymore.
just let me get u out of my mind.
dun hurt me anymore.
u pulled me out, make me confident to love again.
but u pushed me back now.
i feel so silly, so stupid.
the whole thing is probably my fault.
i shouldnt have noe u
and when i noe u
i shouldnt have fall for u
and when i fall for u
i should have just tell u
but i din, and i lost it.
i'm so sorrie, not to u, but to myself.
i always hurt myself by thinking abt those days, how happie we were.
i keep thinking that u will still love me.
but, you dun.
now, i realised i shuld have just lived my life alone.
i shuld have just love u no more.
i shuld just stop doing everything for u.
i hate myself for not listening to myself.
i hate myself for telling me not to give up.
i hate myself for bluffing myself that there is still hope.
iwillsuffersilently,iwillkeeptheloveforuonlyinside,deepinsidemyheart.vanessa is going to smack me hard if i mention him again.
not anymore.
i promise, that video clip is the last thing for u.
just treasure it like how i do.
good bye nicholas.
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