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Saturday, April 30, 2005
12:04 AM

yay!
i got my laptop today.
so its actually not abit out of stock.
haha.

went out to bugis just now
shopping thats wad me n van did.
we went topshop
tried on a halter neck.
like it alot.
but in the end, din buy.
probably get it the next time.
i will!!!
have lots of fun.
taking neo prints
buying , spending money!!!
laughs.

went on to meet lang ping later for lunch.
bedok. ya, thats the place
we went burger king
start talking about bgr and all.
he quite a nice guy after all.

recalled wad i bought.

-bossini long sleeve shirt.
-pendant from perlini silver
-earings too
-pendant for my mum from taka jewelry.

total spent about hundred dollars.
i declare now.
i m broke.
haha.

oh ya,
gonig to open another bank account soon
so as to control my spendings hopefully. =)

i'm outtt

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Thursday, April 28, 2005
12:00 AM

i am tired of working at my counter le.
i wanna quit, but i can't.
i dunoo why.
probably due to too much of commitments.
and my senior didn't want to let me go.
she din let me have a chance to reject her.
and i wasnt in the mood to do that.
now, i dunoo how to tell her i cant work.
how???!!
can someone please teach me how..
please tell me how to tell my senior.

schoool is starting in less than one months time.
i am looking forward to it.
and also dreading it
i noe i m contadicting myself.
yes, i wanna go school cos i'm bored of working now.
but i dreaded it , cos i dunoo how to handle new frens.
i love my frens now.
i dunoo how to change my life without them.
we are so close, close, close.
but we have to go on our ways in the end.
will we just be with our new frens and lose contact in the end?
i hope not.
dun worry michelle.

schedule of may:

- 1st-8th may --- working (level 2)
-12 may --- freshman orientation.
- 13th-17th may--- working(basement two taka square)
-18th may-20th may --- BA orientation
-21st may-23rd may --- malaysia.
-24th may- school starts, nightmare starts.

tight schedule.
DL is wanting pple now.
thinknig whether to go over ther to work
one hour $6.
not bad.
shuld i? opinions pleaseeeee.

oh ya, where is my laptop..
when is it arriving!!!!!

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Thursday, April 21, 2005
12:01 AM

To: you

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh .
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh,

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were ment to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

i really thot you were the one.
but i know i was wrong.
you were nv the one.
i was nv right.

you put me at loss.

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Saturday, April 16, 2005
10:57 AM

==>GALS...
Find a guy who calls you beautiful
instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world
when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one
who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends
and says, "...that's her.

"GUYS...
Find a girl who calls you baby faced
instead of hotor sexi
who can't stand it when you hang up onher
and calls right back,
who would sit there for hours looking into youreyes,
who doesn't care what you look like,
butwhat's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in hereyes
and kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,
Wants to be with you in public,
even if you wear those old grass stained
and ripped pants with thebleached jersey like always,
Wait for the girl
who is a constant reminder of your happiness and joy,
who makes you smiles just by knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy backrides to in public
and she still is in view of her friends,
while she gets off and
you hear her go: "you'rethe one for me, for always"

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Friday, April 15, 2005
8:33 PM

went ngee ann just now for matriculation.
walked around the convention hall to drop by different forms.
not bad.
glad it wasnt confusing at all.

oh ya.
something unlucky happened
me n denise were on our way there
when some gal knock onto me
n the strap of my shoe broke.
and luckily we were at raffles place mrt.
went out and bought a dmk shoes.
didn't think much about the price.
think it cost twenty plus.
this things happen when luck is not with you.
sigh.

back to the story.
we went to look at the notebooks.
and sometimes.
i wanna say those people are irritating somehow.
like wad i m in taka.
haha.
go around disturbing people while browsing.
told them dun need help
but they still continue crapping.
can't blame, its their job.
bought my laptop.
acer 3002 something la.
the flat n lightest laptop.
the wide screen one.
hope i will get use to it. =)

fees in poly is really alot.
thousand plus for one semester.
so total for three years is about $6000
plus my laptop is $8000 plus
and alot alot of things will end up to at least 10 000
which means my dad have to spend so much on me just in sch
thats alot.
i guess i will still want to continue working as part time
in some where la.
wanna lighten the burden of my dad.
so that he dun have to give me so much allowance.

cant wait for school to start. =)

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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
12:20 AM

watch 'tong hua' mtv.
one word to describe- touching.
love always come n go very fast.
you take ages to get your special one.
but just one little thing can separate both of u.
we will never get what we wanted so easily.
but we lose them just in a blink of us.

i know i may never recover.
i wont.
the wounds are still there.
how do i heal it and stop it from bleeding?
i never let go.
but at least i learn to contain it all imside me.
i learn to hide the unhapiness.
i learn to let it be.

you never noe how scary it has been for me.
to live all alone by myself again.
and adapt to the days without you.
you dunoo abt the hurt you bring to me.
to be single again.
and never look forward in another relationship.

it was difficult.
everyday was so hard to pass.
but i try to be happie.
at least, i tried.

van dear,i know.
one day, you can be like me.
you will adapt to it.
you will live once again by yourself.
you can do it.
one day, you will just keep all the hurt to yourself.

=)

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Monday, April 11, 2005
11:30 PM

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain
I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

i love this song.
the lyrics are beautiful.
the lyrics are so true!

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10:49 PM

finally get to go online again.
something went wrong in my com last few days.
my user got locked up by some hackers.
anyway, its in good shape again. yay!

we were just discussing abt the change in the world the other day.
gals are getting taller and taller.
n guys are 'shrunking' and 'shrunking'.
i think soon, we will see tall gals walknig hands in hands with short guys.
haha.
and by then, tall guys with short gals will look more awkward to pple.
laughs.
why is the world changing so fast.
shruggs.

i went ot pay my school fees in the afternoon
and got myself half drenched.
the rain is so sickening.
why must it get big when i have to rushed to get something done.
angry!!!
and took a cab back to heeren to meet yufen n chuan zhu.
they went for medical checkup.
and we went for photo taking.
and the photos looks so ugly!
yucks.
too much light and too near.
both of us were complaining.
taknig a new one soon.
hope it comes out fine!
so much for my ten bucks.

i think i lost my trust on guys.
totally.
i feel lost. really confused.
perharps.
it takes time to build back that trust again.
i dun feel happie getting loved by guys anymore.
i feel disgusted.
i dunoo why i m feeling this way.
i keep telling both me n others are not ready for a serious bgr now.
or probably i haven found the right guy yet.
thats why i have been thinking this way?

sometimes, i even lost my trust in pple ard me.
just feel that pple are selfish.
they only look for u, ask you when they need you to do sth.
when they need you.
they started looking for you.
asking you do this and that.
like you are supposed to do it for them.
and when u need them ard, they give all sort of excuses.
like taking you for granted.

sigh.
why am i saying all these.
like preaching to pple how bad the world is.

take it easy michelle.

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Sunday, April 03, 2005
11:26 AM

if loving you means letting you go, i will.

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Saturday, April 02, 2005
12:04 AM

if a girl cries in front of u,
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If u take her hand,
she would stay with u for the rest of ur life;
If u let her go,
she couldnt go back to
being herself anymore.

A gal wont cry easily,
except in front of the person whom she loves the most,
she becomes weak.

A gal wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please hold her hands firmly,
coz she's the one who is willing to staywith u 4 for the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision,
u ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of u,
When she cry bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of u,
And bcoz of u?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony have bcome too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,Think about it,
If a gal cry her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only u will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may b too late for regrets,
It may b too late to say "im sorry".

Dont do this to a gal,
You may regret for the rest of ur life.
Maybe in ur life,
she's the only one who loves u the most.

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Friday, April 01, 2005
11:44 PM

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