My Stories
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
10:53 AM
today.. had chem practical.. weren't nervous at all.. wow.. first time..haha... den i think i pour some solution... accidentally on my hand..now my fingers there got black black spot.. so ugly.. yucks.... hee.... i so blur wad.... ya... got finish with my practical... n relief at once....
went to kfc after school with afroza.. eat le den she went home.. jas, n chuan zhu acc mi.. then say herman n his gang .. n james came.. so in the end.. left mi n jas n james n nat n aisyah... yep... went mac... study.. den sth bad happen.. haiz.. dun wish to talk abt it..so complicated.. i got slapped sia.. accidentally..yuck.... in the end okie le lo... ya. .no worries.. =)
haiz.. my blog something wrong.. got a new design.. but.. so idiotic... canot see.... haiz...
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
12:27 PM
this afternoon.. went out to meet xy n stan at the sch bus stop... saw herman n frens playing bball.. hehe... so jus say byebye to him.. n go to fast east plaza meet van... n the funniest thing is we miss the stop.. have to take a cab back to far east... so damn blur.. haha..
ms soh called mi... ask mi abt the fight thing... got mi shock.. really.. this is so bad.. i noe the teachers will noe abt it.. haiz.. how???? she told mi'you better dun got involve, or not u will get suspended too'.. how??? i dun wan him to get suspended.. i dun wan him to make a public apology.. I DUN WAN.... it is really very sad...i dun wan to hear.... you will see how ms soh look at me den.. you will see how everyone ask mi abt this n that...... i hate it.....haiz.....
den..went to toa payoh find herman... he playing pool with nat, juli, claris, carlo....van went with us.. but later she went back to far east to meet annabella again...sad... haha.... well... got kinda moody.. maybe cos of pms??? ya... so sat down there, lookin so depressed.. like someone who jus got out of love (but i m not), watching them played pool...
then..talk to nat, juli n claris.. hehe.. we are getting to noe each other more.. one thing in common... we hate the school system alot.... told them abt my problems...feel better.. glad they do understand...school SUCKS.... i dun like going school anymore.. it is so so cold.. so so stressful... so so hateful.... the school changed...... alot alot..... from a warm one.. to a cold one.. from a loving one.. to a hateful one.. from a carefree one.. to a stressful one... yucks... i hate you...
haiz... so.. we talk talk..den wen to play... haha.. quite fun though.. that xy.. laugh till so loud.. like nobody business.. dunoo wad she doing.. keep laughing n laughing.. hehe....den she n stan go le.. we played for a while more.. n go eat dinner... at long john... look at carlo n herman.. like small boy like that.. so so childish... haha....
do enjoy myself quite a lot... thanks to all of them... been crying the whole nite ytd.. so my emotions not stable yet. but they made my day today.. thanks everyone... hehe..
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Saturday, August 28, 2004
11:04 AM
well..i knew something bad was going to happen.. my instinct...when ms soh keep us up after sch... i got a really bad feeling..thats why..i turn so moody.... n guess wad is it.. two guys fought...wad is that..
n never mind.. when i heard of it from his frens... i rushed all the way from sch to the hawker, with severe cramps in my stomach... see him.. i almost cry out..his right eye.. swollen... abit.. i knew he got into a fight.. but he jus dun wan to admit.. he ask his frens to kept it from mi.. but he nv knew i knew abt it before i saw him..
yes.. i m angry.. i m upset.. i m disappointed... he dun noe...i m hurt.. does he noe? does he care? he got mi really worried.. how is he goin to answer to his parents if they got to noe.. n the teachers?? i noe this will be all over the staffroom by now... i dun wan to hear him making a public apology.... have he thot abt my feelings when he started fighting? does he noe how much pain will be in my heart? i guess he chose violence to solve the problem.. can he not fight anymore???
i got quiet all the whole afternoon... moody as well (sorrie xy.. sorrie van)... suffering the pain..in both my stomach n my heart.... but he dunoo wad happen to mi.. keep asking mi why... i jus look at him sadly.... shook my head.. n turn away... i noe i have to control my emotions.....
why do guys have to fight???????? do violence solved all things??? it make it worse!!!!! i dun understand why... this is so so bad... wad is so good abt punching each other n making each other injured... is it fun to see blood all over... he doesnt deserve the punches.. i dun deserve the hurt too...
they are all sorts of stories abt... which one of them is real?? staring incident... pointing middle finger... heard abt how he got beaten... n how he beat the other one...its so so scary.... n half of the sch saw the fight... n wad will happen next??? i tried to put on a smile... but it is not the same in my heart.... i try to be happie.. how long can i be? no one can assure mi this type of thing wont happen again.. no one can assure mi he wont get injured again.. no one can assure mi.....
guys.. u are really a DISPPOINTMENT.... why cant you all understand violence dun solve things n it make it worse?? when will u noe.... when will you ever thot abt how your love ones will feel when they got to noe it... spare a thot for them... it really hurts them... to see you injured all over... all of you say.. it is not painful..... but.. u can bluff everyone... except them.. they noe exactly how.... n the pain u feel... is not worse than the pain they feel...
you noe.. the more you love them.. the more hurt u r.. the more pain you feel.. n its true... do you guys bear to let you love ones feel all these pains n hurts? we are gals.. GALS got feelings.. they care for you more than anything n everything... so why do these...
please... dun fight anymore le hao ma?? can u promise mi (if 'you' ever see this page).... make peace okie?? if u have any problems.. jus confide in me... if you got anger in you.. throw it on mi... i be your punching bag...but.. dun hurt youself.. n in turn hurt me again hao ma?? you can scold mi for everything... i wont feel as much hurt... but.. seeing all the bruises, wounds on you... i.......
i m sorrie for the silent treatment jus now.... i was really upset.. why am i not there to stop you... if i was there.... maybe.. it wont be so bad le... really sorrie... i cant manage to stop the fight.. i jus hope everything is fine.. dun get mi worrie le.. hope there wont be any more troubles.... talk to me.....
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Thursday, August 26, 2004
10:45 AM
had a long day at sch... it kept raining.. i cant go home... hehe... n also scared that i would meet some perverts again...
well.... today..had fun durnig p.e... mr edzra not here.. haha... we played soccer.. whole class.. gals vs boys... but..gals team got randy, william, wenjie n jeff helping... haha... thats was fun.... but i got hit by the ball.. quite painful... yihao shoes kept flying out of his feet... hehe.. den shi shi kept laughing... in the end..her shoe fly off also.. haha.... shuld have seen the scene... the shoe fly past jw face.. hee.... running here n there.... first time i enjoy playing soccer.. haha...
then had abit of moodswing today.... esp after the boys kicked the dunoo wad ball in class.. n hit mi TWICE... n it was painful.... got abit angry... but after awhile okie le.... i think i m cursed to be hitted by the ball.. or does the ball like mi too much?? haiz..
had a physics test afrer sch.... it was quite easy.. though i din study much... =D... hmmm.... it was raining as i said... thot herman was playing bball.. got worried he will fall sick after being in the rain.. but... he went sp with his frens.. n he NEVER tell mi... never mind... wonder does he think of mi anot... forget it... then two kind souls walked home with mi.... the two lovebirds... haha.... thanks stan n xy.... u noe.. i got a phobia of walking home when it rains.. or after it rains.... cos... of.. you noe wad.... ya.... gotta go.. play pool with xy le.... byebye..=)
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
10:34 AM
haiz.. pains in stomach today... something is wrong.. got no time for doctor.. plus i dun dare go alone.. to such a big clinic... dun wish to go... n i let it pain.... haiz.. everybody dun seems to noe where the appendix is... left or right??? if it is left.. i may be having some problem in my appendix.... keep having pains there... stop talking abt it le...
will be starting the intensive class during lessons from today onwards.. n it means.. everyone have to do eng or maths during mt lessons... n this week is english... i think we students are going to suffocate soon.. with all the hw loads... after sch intensive.. n plus minimum of five hours studying at night, not to forget..... haiz... why is it so stress now.. why didnt the rally affect us.. like.. change the duration of school or anything... its time to do that....
the school.. have changed alot.. not cos of the merge... but cos of the pple up there????? i dunoo how to explain it.. but.. i noe it by my heart that.. the school is academic crazy...... they wanted to get all those value added stuffs.. or wad..... n pushing we students to study so hard.. i noe it is for our own good.. but.. have they thot abt us... how do we feel... our stress??? we are not machine.... we cant operate for 24 hours... haiz.. dun wanna go any further.. before i get fed up again.... jus wish.i can disappear from this world.. not worries.. not everything....
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Monday, August 23, 2004
7:05 PM
today was about the same... had a long day of studying in school... same old subjects.... n... got scoldings too...
well... mr foong wanted us to study... n you noe how long... 8 p.m to 1 a.m... shocked????n thats the minimum.. well... we can do that.. n the next day.. u see the dozens of us.. falling asleep in class... this is crazy.. told my mum this.. she scold mi mad..in the end my fault... haiz... how can we stay up till so late... then you will soon see everybody falling sick.. not enuf slp.... hehe....
went hawker after school with van, xy, afroza... ate one big bowl of curry... now stomach uneasy.. hot hot one.. lol....
den i be mummy's good gal.. study in school to do physics paper till five something.. alone okie..... see.. i so guai.. haha.... den.. in the end.. let herman scold.. he dun wan mi to be alone in school... say unsafe.. hee.... well.. he still cares++.. haha..
practical is coming up... good luck n all the best to everyone.... =D
oh ya.. and also... teachers are beginning to notice abt blogs.. they do go ard exploring too... becareful..... !!! haha.... time for dinner....
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Saturday, August 21, 2004
5:59 PM
today..got sat class.. until nine thirty... then went eat prata with frens... came back abt ten something.. waited for herman... while waiting.. played bball with randy ,wil, jeff, xy.. play match.. randy, xy n me a team.. jeff n wil a team... well.. cant believe... we are winning the two guys.... haha... quite satisfied with my playing today... not bad ah.. scored quite alot.... haha... den ping chong came... den changed.. have to be separated.. two guys one gal.... hehe.. won again.. den got tired... went to take a drink.. saw herman... he went to rehearse his class play..
dem play with mas n wil for a while... eleven something le.. got some kind of quarrels happening... everybody dl... carlo's fault.. haha... den went find herman... he finish le... den.. walk to the canteen together.. carlo n stan ask whether wanna join them... so.. we join them to plaza sing... watch the movie ' alien vs predator' with xy,stan, herman, van n carlo.. nice movie... but..sound effect too good.. very hurting... hehe...
went home with herman.. so tired... but.. had a wonderful time outside... at least i spend some time with my dearest bf.. hehe... =) love ya herman....
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
8:03 PM
today is no better... look.. a boring day.. three periods of english, four period of maths and two period of ss.... haiz.. almost fell asleep.. well... got really
angry with the school today...
ms soh broek the news that only 15 pple in each class are allow to attend the graduation nite... well well.. they whole class got so upset.. so dl with the school.. wad kind of graduation is this...
15 from each class.... we are thinking of not to go.. unless... all the 36 of us are going... this operation s**K man!!! so... it means.. the rest of 21 in class arent going to graduate then?
if the ballroom at hillton hotel is small... get a bigger one instead.. that can accomodate the whole school.. this is so stupid... for goodness sake... will we enjoy by then??? that's why.. i always say..this sch has changed... alot.... haiz..
haiz... waited for herman in sch this afternoon.. then went home alone... got sort of moody.... still quite upset about the whole thing abt the graduation nite.. maybe we shuld book a chalet...
hope someone will
cheer mi up... where is
herman....
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004
8:44 PM
haiz... i got really troubled this few days... real troubled... many reasons... i dunoo why.. i getting lots of pains in my stomach and my head.. probably i got some kind of diseases? jus refused to go see a doctor.. maybe i m afraid... something might happen?.. haiz.. next... jus feel abit sad... someone is treating mi codly sometimes... i dun understand why too... i expected lots of care n love.. but i cant seem to feel it in anyway... jus wish we could spend more time together... miss those times alot... alot...
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
9:10 PM
dunoo wad happen got moodswing.. pissed off... jus feel like nobody care.... pms?? got this stomach pain.. it hurts.. not gastric.. not stomaach ache... n no one cares.... maybe i getting sonme diseases.... going to die soon.. wadever... no mood to do anything.. study for physics tml.. even worse... dunoo wad is the problem with mi... jus feel that no ones loves mi..... herman nv give mi enuf attention.... maybe??? haiz... wad the hell is happening to me..
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Monday, August 16, 2004
3:50 AM
ya.. its my birthday ytd.. had a bbq... at ecp.. wonderful one.. hehe..but too bad herman cant go... haiz.. abit upset.. but... i still have him to myself in the afternoon... went to watch nc-16 movie for the first time.. nice show... he gave mi a 21 PINK roses.. nice.. beautiful.. love them lots... thanks my dear.... n it is so expensive... poor him... spend so much money on a bouquet of flowers.. haiz... have a great time with him.. went to city satay pick up satay.. luckily there is herman helping mi take it to parkway... or not i dunoo how to manage.. but he had to leave soon.. haiz..sad lo... but still muz keep my promise to him.. enjoy myself... went to buy food with xs, van,jw,ps.. helped mi alot..thanks to them too...hehe... then went to ecp... saw lots of my frens there le.. all came to wish mi happie birthday... the boys gave mi a big big pig.. wah.. wonder how to take home so much presents... they are nice.. thanks everybody.. den my poor pArents have to start the fire.. but wind to big..cant start.. but later..thanks to ee shang... i saw fire le... lol.... den bbq starts.. everybody started eating everything.. den... birthday cake came at nite le... den... have to sing happie birthday song le.. mustain played the violin... my frens sing along with it... nice.. den cut cake time... well... this is wad gonig to happen to every birthday gal ro boy right... distributed le.. then xy came behind mi.. smacked the cake on my face.. then came justin.. wel.. had a hard time cleaning it.. so..tricked my frens.. some of them got the cream too.. by mi..haha.. revenge... but.. haiz.... they carried mi... down to the beach.. dragged mi.. n throw mi into the sea.. i m wet... hehe.. poor thing right?... no choice.. my birthday wad.. hehe.. have to keep to my promise.. guess. i m having quite a lot of fun too right? haha... but.. still misses him quite alot.. read a touching letter.. make mi cry.. so touched... haha... really... cry of happiness.. hehe,,, even without him there by my side.. i got his flowers, his letter... n it's enuf.. hehe.. one more thing.. teddy came back.. talk to him quite abit... everyone misses him so much.. got a gf too le.. haha... late le.. have to go home soon... carry all the bags of presents.. thanks to yf.. help mi carry home..or not duno how to manage... haha..... had a tired day outside... have lots of fun.. wow wow.. haha... thanks everyone for attending my bbq.. n ur presents.. love them... =)
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
1:29 AM
today is my birthday... well well.. happie birthday michelle... hehe..sound lame wishing myself happie birthday.. haha... hope i going to enjoy myself today... though a little bit sad that herman cant attend.. but.. wad else can i do... haiz.. he cant make it cos he had to celebrate his relatives' birthday... i had to be understanding right.... but.. he promised he will celebrate it with mi in the afternoon... but... i really hope that we can go to the beach together.. how romantic.. well.. have to wait for next time le.. got no choice... hmm... getting more n more excited abt later... hope i will keep my promise to herman.... =)
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