My Stories
Monday, February 28, 2005
11:41 PM
started to feel tense up when i reach the school canteen.
frens were joking and laughing but i jus can't manage to laugh.
just getting worried about my results.
my mum called and told me.
'dun worrie.if results are good, be happie. if results are bad,let it be.'it doesnt make me feel better, it got me more worried.
i dun wan to fail myself. and disappoint my parents.
the talk in hall was boring.
congratulate denise for such good results.
im proudd of her.
i wasn't exactly happie with my results.
not satisfied with my sciences.
but i guess my results are average le.
english-B3e maths-B3a maths-B3combined humanities-B3chemistry-C6physics-C6chinese-A2everything was so well until my sciences.
totally in low mood.
it was all along B's until my science.
and i was like 'wah'
A student who is cheerful and well-liked by her peers, Michelle is able to get them to listen and cooperate with her. she is an intelligent student with a keen analytical mind and is able to apply most of what she has learnt effectively. michelle loves to work with people. her enthusiasm and vitality is an asset to them. michelle's positive attitude, and her bright and bubbly personality will definitely serve her well in the future.that's ms soh testimonial for me.
love it!=) thanks.
to all my frens:darlings, you have done well. done ur best anyway.if results are not to ur expectations, dun be discouraged.its not the end of the world.no matter how good or bad ur results are.we are still frens.wont look down on you.but will encourage you not to give up.we have done our best.there is always a road out!never give up!
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12:04 AM
o levels results are coming out in 14 hours time.
i'm worried..
i dreamt abt my o's last night.
and i dreamt of me getting 4 a2s and three f9 straight.
dun even noe to be happie or sad in the dream
time really passed so fast.
at beginning of yr 2003, we were just trying to adapt to upper sec life.
at 2004, we began to feel the stress of continuous studying and frequent exams.
during june holidays, we started preparing for prelims.
mugging and mugging until o level ended.
phew, thats what all of us said.
and now, its the time to take results.
the terrifying feeling comes once again.
its just one piece of paper.
one piece of paper which will determine our future.
and our feelings.
whether its tears of joy or tears of sadness.
i m not asking for more.
but pray to have a result that enable me to go into a poly for the course i wan.
praying hard.
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Friday, February 25, 2005
11:45 PM
was really busy at work today, after they left.
left with eleanor and me.
n we have to take care of three counters for like 4 hours.
just the both of us.
i have to go take care of wallets n santa bags.
n my night was no good.
wallet lost.counter messy.work not done yet.
i was really busy n yet i cant find anyone to help.
running back n forth both counters.
customers were irritating, fussy and not helpful at all.
they misplaced the wallets and left handbags lying anywhere.
and the most angry thing is that all of them came at the same time.
i only have two hands.
cant be everywhere all the time.
n i could only served one customer at one time.
i was frustrated.tired.
i m depress. feel like crying.
i dunoo wad happen to me.
everything was so messy.
i;m tired, really tired.
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
10:13 AM
http://www.moe.gov.sg/press/2005/pr20050224.htmresults are out on the 28th now.confirmed.
and it means more days to the results now.
n more days we will be keep in suspense.
n weekends will be a
no-good for us.
dear frens, please go to sch on the
28 at 2pm.maybe later jus to skip the principal briefings and stuffs.
i'm going crazy soon..so its not
25 but
28.jinwei, your fav number.good luck!
thanks linus, your testi tells everyone everything about me. exactly. haha.
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9:38 AM
smile.
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
11:31 PM
two days to the results?
who noes..
the media din even want to announce and tell us when.
probably the results slips got burnt .
or maybe someone stole it all away.
i m being crazy anyway.
when are the results released!!!!!??
one more thing, i finally received my singpass today.
i forgot to tell my frens some things.
dear frens, i finally learnt how to play
majong on my trip to malaysia!!
how wonderful.suddenly learnt how to gamble, jus in one day.
so, is this something good or bad.?
worked morning today.again.
time passes faster when you are on morning shift.
but more troublesome.
you have to clean the counter,
have to do all sorts of preparation before taka open.
and the goods just have to come when you were busy with some stuffs.
i dunoo why, ask the goodsmen.
i m seriously tired of working.
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Monday, February 21, 2005
11:50 PM
jus changed my blogskin again.
though it does not suit me..
anyway, i liked it..
working hours were from 930 to 530..
and a shopaholic like me..
will definetly go shopping when there are chances to.
yep..
went shopping with van earlier on.
we went ard wisma n far east.
i was looking for
my shoes .
n she was looking for something to spend her money on.
we talk about lots of things.
about relationships, schools, frens and stuffs..
done lots of catch ups..
and that ching leng, left work before he was suppsoed to!
later get complained again.
serves him right den...
okie back to the story.
we went taking pics..(jinwei jealous??!!!)haha...
shop until ard nine thirty..
i bought
two pair of ear rings, one handabag, one pair of shoes and a shirt for my bro.
gosh.. money is running out..
who wans to be my atm!!!!haha..
and van finally started spending money.
on a brown stripe pants.
one more thing..
i actually went to the library to borrow boookssss while waiting for van to arrive.
good gal, pat head.*puke*it's been ages since i step into the library..
like last year..
i m turning to be illiterate soon.
four more days.
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Friday, February 18, 2005
8:34 PM
it's seven days to hell..i dun dare to pin high hopes on getting good results.
but i dun wan to get results that no one wants to.
when someone says results are going to be out on the
25th,
it does not seems near to the date.
but when someone says results are out on
next fri,
it really makes me worried.
myheartwillpopoutsoon.i have been thinking where will i go if i din make it.
what will happen to my future?
i admit that i din really put in all my efforts
i dont feel so.
people come asking me if i got confidence
i'm dumbed.
no words came out.
then they asked me if i know how to do the papers.
i answer them--i dunoo if i know the answers or dunoo the answers.
n they say die .
i know.
went out with xiaoshi jinwei xinying stanley n benson.
we went tp without jinwei n benson.
the open house was just normal.
not as great.nothing really special.
jus taking a look at my frens and their bfs.
they can be so loving at times.
until i m really envy of them.
but half of the time they are having arguements.
and most of the time i can only shake my head.
this is something why
i dun wan to be attached now.
and why i started to get sick n tired of guys.
getting attached may not be a good thing.
i dont have the strength to
give in so much again.
i dont have the guts to
fall in love again.
and to be
saying sorrie for something i din do.
wont have to stand
modern guys' pettiness n jealousy.
dont have to
feel guilty after looking at other guys.
dont have to be '
caged'.
i'm lost.
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
12:05 AM
gosh.
results are out on the 25th.
i m so worried.extremely.
wad if i did badly.
where can i go?
wad if i did average.
wad course will i take?
i'm confused.
plus, there is fear in me.
pray hard. im praying hard.
i dunoo wad i will do.
sigh.
v day was alone for me.
was working thru the afternoon n night.
saw lots of couples with flowers.
n lots of gals with flowers, even when they are single.
im not upset or anything.
but i m jus missing those days again.
last yr valentine was so happie.
this yr was jus alone.
oh well, its okie.
it nv bad to be single.
i admit..
tml will be a better day!
praying hard....
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
7:18 PM
thats us again.. he is getting more n more childish..hhaha..
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7:18 PM
we are acting abit crazyyyy
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7:17 PM
me n rong er.. do we look somehow alike in some ways..
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7:17 PM
me n weiqiang
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7:13 PM
nice fireworks..
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7:10 PM
this is nice..
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Saturday, February 12, 2005
10:33 PM
i have the funnie feeling when i saw them on the photos..
heart ache?!?i'm not sure.
probably.
maybe. yes.
i dunoo why i feel this way.
pple say its natural.i noe.
my life was half destroyed.
i admit i haven totally move on.
i simply dunoo how to.
maybe it's because of it that's way i like the feeling of having not 'caged'
no one is that to tie me to his side.
i can go out with any guys i like.
i can go anywhere without telling him.
i can give myself time for myself.
i m not strong enuf.
i noe.
i have been single for
three months n one day.
isnt it fast.
n he has already found his love one.
i m not going to force myself to find one.
or should i put it as-
i will not find one.
not a guy who cant understand my feelings.
not a guy who cant be true to me.
not a guy who i wont catch my eye on anymore.
i will nv fall in love again. not so deep.
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
1:53 AM
happie chinese new year everyone..
i noe i m late by one hour n 53 secs.. opps.
well, im having great fun in malaysia now..
the fireworks are so beautiful.
its nv bad to be a malaysian.
i love my country.
finally got to see all my cousinsss n uncles, aunts.
the kids are changing so fast.
growing taller n taller.
i noe i m old..haha.
i miss them so much.
it's only once a year where all of us can gather together.
everybody sitting in the kitchen eating reunion dinner.
ours is lunch la.
it's so much of drinking and eating.
i noe i m growing sideways.
i try getting thinner when i get back.
fat hope, i know.
i m waiting for time to pass now.
'shou yue', i wan my parents to live long.. haha.
i have got all the warmth here..
feeling of being loved by pple who nv will leave me.
time for fireworks
again!!
you nv noe how much i love you.
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Monday, February 07, 2005
1:11 AM
last day of my continuous working of 12 days.
thats tiring okie.
everyday was like the same.
taking the same bus
seeing almost the same bus uncles.
walking the same routes.
how boringgg.
anyway, i got a week off.
clap clap.
i'm gay.
well, chinese new year is coming.
going back to maalysia later today.
miss my relatives so much....
this time,i m going back without having to miss someone out there.
i' m happy for myself okie.
summary for past few weeks:
- bought five new year tops
-one billabong skirt
-one denim skirt
-one giodarno jeans.
-two handbags
-one pair of charles n keith shoes.
thats abt all for this new year.
i jus realised i contributed too much to the country's revenue.
what a good citizen i am.
clap hands.
spend so much for this new year.
my one month salary gone afer going shopping for three times.
imagine how much i spent for each time.
thats alottt.
i need to save.
well, that's rubbish.
after this new year, i'm going to live my life to the fullest.
being happie and not worrie.
i never will.
hah.
gotta go pack my luggage now.
gonig out later later later with some gfs.
probably gotta go window shopping!haha.
anyway, saw ou xuan the other day at taka.
she is cute. jus like a normal little gal.
shut down~
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Friday, February 04, 2005
11:30 AM
plus, i
might not have forgotten him totally
dun ask me why.
i said
might right.
probably that wasnt the reason.
i jus cant find the right guy.
michelle, go slow
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
1:06 AM
it's been long since i blogged. yes.
busy with all sorts of thing.--work
and becos of that, i have got no life.
i got no idea ad movies are coming up, wad shows are on tv,
i only know that taka is on sales..
and that stupid taka management extend the shopping hours to ten.
waste of electricity, resources, and most importantly -
my time.
no life.
i guess i found out the reason why i m not ready for a relationship.
first, i m doubtful about the guys now.
i dunoo why.
i jus have the thinking, wad if i meet someone better.
wad if i regret, it will be break up.
its unfair.thats the main reason.
second, will the relationship last now..
it will be plenty of years of dating..
third, i m afraid of geeting 'caged'
it means less time for frens,
not able to go out with other guy-frens.
guys nowadays.
so easily get jealous, for nothing.
dun look gentleman at all, all like gals.
cant stand them sometimes.
why m i always thinking this way..
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