My Stories
Saturday, January 29, 2005
11:56 PM
smilez.
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11:55 PM
contacts-on!!! which do i look nicer on? =P
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11:53 PM
specs-on!!
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Monday, January 24, 2005
10:25 PM
do i look like me?
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10:23 PM
baby's turn
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10:23 PM
i look soooo gong
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10:22 PM
sweet.
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
1:06 AM
as usual, went to work this day.
jus have my off day ytd.
went shopping with baby at orchard.
took some photos, upload it le, scroll downnnnn
ytd was fun, well, i spend at least a hundred ba.
on clothes, bags, cds, charity, food.
i got a hole in my pocket le..
if i were to go shopping one more time.
i will go broke.
which nice guy is willing to be my atm?
next off day is on mon.
maybe going out with jw.
have to bring my bro to bugis, before my mum nag at me again.
'my mr nice guy'
- must not let history repeats.
-love me, miss me, care for me.
-loves babies alot
-quarrels end quickly.
-hug me like wad i wanted when i needed it.
-loves my frens, ai wu ji wu
-get along well wtih my frens
-listen to my nonsense.(that's difficult)
-nv force me into anything
-responsible
-nv late, only i can.hah.
-go shopping with me
the last one is the most important de.haha
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
11:16 PM
*punch us* =D
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11:15 PM
laugh*
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11:15 PM
xiao shi and me, we love you.. haha..
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11:14 PM
me n baby.. =)
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Saturday, January 15, 2005
11:51 PM
i knew a guy at work today.
he was a fun talking one.
anyway, he talk to me first.
cos of one customer, see my bag for like one hour to two.
i was damn pissed off by her.
he kept making fun of me.can't stand him!
frens, can i ask u a question?
wad if one day, i decided to go with a guy whom i knew u all wont like him?
wad if one day, i fall in love with a guy who u all can't get along with him?
wad if one day, i like a guy who u pple will object?
give me an answerrr.
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Friday, January 14, 2005
2:20 PM
there is a voice telling me to get a bf.
there is a voice telling me i will meet more guys in the future, why hurry
there is a voice telling me they are not right for me.
there is a voice telling me they will treat me as well
looks like the angel n devil are living in me.
i'm jus confused
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1:32 AM
today is my off day, yeah!
longing for it le.
i'm seriously tired of working.
firstly, no time for tv
secondly, no time for frens
thirdly, hardly get to talk to my brothers
fourth, no time for me to sort out my
feelingssss
i' still in doubt of wad to do.
jus feel that staying single will still be the best
single and not available
will that be alright?
it sure do get me envy my frens seeing them how loving with their bfs.
past memories do flash back, but i noe its over.
no pointt.
well, i admit i m unfair to the others.
they do tell me too.
but there is jus a knot in my heart, that needs to be untie first.
possible reasons why i m not ready
1. i still haven got over him
2. i m afraid of going into a relationship again
3. i m confused over choosing one from all.
these reasons are enough to kill me.
actually one is eunf.
so which one is it?
now, i cant live without frens.not a bf.
if one day to choose, going out with fren or bf.
frens come first le.
but, my frens are always with thier bfs.
some even worse,-- oblivious to their surroundings
which make me even worse, even craving to get a bf soon.
but i noe, it is not possible.
i m jus seventeen this yrs. in fact, only sixteen.
how long can a relationship last if i go into one now.
6 yrs? 8 yrs? until we get married?
only if thats possible.. i will consider.
i dun wanna get hurt anymore, nor do i wan to hurt someone.
i jus feel that, treasuring the ones ard me
NOW is more important.
my frens, my family, my relatives...
i cant afford to lose them..
time for frens gathering is getting lesser and lesser.
the time when we can meet together and hang out together as a group in six
will probably during the result day.
wad my senior says is right.
it is now in the modern days, wad century is it .. why shuld i care abt hurting u or me.
a relationship that cant work out, break up n be frens.
why be like enemies, when we once loved each other deeply.
its not harm giving a try.
but frens, i have given my priority to you.
you come first now.
i m not thinking of dating another guy soon.
i jus need some help.
help to talk me out of my fear.
frens, where are you..
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
11:43 PM
been keeping myself busy with work all the time.
some things, i jus dun wan to think abt it.
jus knew tat herman got himself a new gf.
i was feeling not good, but i was not sad or anything
jus... feeling abit funnie.
about me n him, we got along quite well
too well ba..
but, i jus have the feeling of dun wanna be engaged.
i rather we be together, but not having a status of being in a relationship
maybe i was not ready for one.
i think so..
or maybe my feelings arent organised yet.
isit so?
i dunoo wad i m thinking
n yet he is so understanding.
he is willing to wait, but how long can someone wait? 10years? 10 months?
he is not like my dream guy type
is it the reason why i am hestitating?
i dunno my feelings anymore.
they gone hardddd.
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Sunday, January 09, 2005
11:33 PM
went out to town jus now.
going out with him, suppose to meet him at three
but in the end met vanessa at two to accompany her.
went shopping at og, den to taka until three sth n she had to go.
den that bad guy, late for more than half an hour.
i wonder is it all guys like this de, always late.
went shop ard, find jw talk a while ..
cant leave him alone down there waiting for me..
went to catch a movie- meet the fockers
it was so funnie, but too bad, half of the movie i was half asleep.
was soooo tired.
well, i do enjoy my day out..
all the way crapping ard..
he went back to meet his frens while i go back mini toons buy $50 things.
get a membership card for life, yeah!
haiz, i think i almost spend $100 or more jus today out..
i need to cut down on my expenses!!!!!!!
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12:14 AM
that's me n xs (christmas eve)
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Friday, January 07, 2005
11:52 PM
today at work was boring.
until...
until i lost my punch card!!!!
went eat dinner with mei mei de.
we went kfc, sat down, put all my things on my tray.
after dinner, remembered to take my mobile phone, wallet, magazine
but forget my punch card n tissue paper.
and only realised it after half an hour.
started to panic lo.
too bad, really can't find..
went back n report lost!!
good thing is my supervisor off today.
bad thing is tml get scolded lo.
haiz, fated la.. fated to get scolded.
den that jerome say let her scold lo.(so bad)
that bad bad wolf!
going out with him on sunday.yea!
he actually ask me out eh.
so nice of him, volunteer to go shopping with me.
but, it will be so bad of me, drag him go shopping together right?
still no idea where to go when sunday is coming in one day time!
finally i can rest by not staring at handbags n customers le.
this time i be the customer..haha.
i jus got the feeling that i m still not ready for a relationship yet.
i dunoo how to think well like wad jin said..
i dunoo how to not think too much anymore.
i jus need someone to love me.. n really love me..
will he be the one?
if ever one day he pops in the question, i dun even noe how to answer him.
to accept or not to..
my heart has no answer..
but, he is a nice guy..
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
11:20 PM
today is the third day of school n yet i din have to attend.
n shuld i be happie or sad?
have to go to work as usual, standing down there like idiot..
kinda miss school quite alot..
i miss the school bell, the classroom, teachers, classmates, frens..
this time i noe why studying is more enjoyable.
there is frens ard, laughter, unlike working world..
so messing, so tiring, no fun at all.. stressful instead.
sunday is my off day.. ya!!
well, realised that i will be worknig for two weeks non stop w/o an off day until sunday.
pathetic.
no wonder i feel as though i m out of breath working..
going out this sunday.
guess i will be visiting my frens at their workplace one by one..
haha.. but must see if he wans to go there anot.
just read the newspaper..
my dad collegue's,lisa, passport had been found in the resort..
n it means wad?i dunoo.
i m still praying hard, for her to come back safely..
prayingggggg...
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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
1:58 AM
i m waitng, waiting for you to apppear..
thats the only thing i can do right now.
you might be the one..
this yr feb 14, will i be alone?
when my frens are happily spending their time with their bfs..
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Sunday, January 02, 2005
1:06 AM
happie new year people!
new year means new begining n it mean new me..haha
made some new year resolution..
-- learn to save money
-- work,n have fun at the same time
-- go into a new relationship until i m ready
--be mummy's gal
--be more decisive.. ( have to..)
anyway, went out ytd after work.
went to marina bay, met jerome..
then later vanessa n ching leng
had a quarrel with my mum
but at least someone is there to talk me out.. thanks..
well, we get along quite well.
craps, talking, communication arent a problem..
jus dun feel like getting into a relationship now yet..
this time round, i knew him long enuf.. one year plus? is that alright?
perharps,
i m not ready yet.
let nature takes its course ba..
wait until both of our feelings are there, den make a decision.
praying for those who suffered in the disaster..
those who died, rest in peace..
those lost their beloved ones, everyone out there loves you too..
this news are devastating..
imagine, not able to go into another new year.
another thing is, one of my dad's collegues.
she went missing there too.
she was the one who interviewed me for my job..
until now, she cannot be found..
if only, if only the disaster happen in the evening,
she will be safe back in singapore.
we are still hoping that she is still alive..
pray...
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