My Stories
Friday, November 18, 2005
12:34 AM
i ... i just received a news.
sad one.
steven passed away.
on sept 20th, n i din realised.
we all din realised.
why the hell din we read newspapers..
he was a guy, once very closed to me, to my frens.
there's a period where we hang out together.
and i remembered, the day i met him was on 7 july 2003.
he and his twin brother, ivan, were working in a blading shop.
and that day, we were having bbq at ecp.
we went over to that shop and rent blading shoes.
that's how we got to know each other.
he was a very cheerful guy,
he was nice, and we all came out with a verdict that he knows how to think more than his bro.
we all chatted alot. and thats how we made frens.
and still we stayed in contact.
he was a guy who i have endless things to talk to.
he would listen, hear out ur problems, and he did not complain.
after one incident, we merely stayed in contact anymore.
we all have our stuffs to do, busy with this n that.
i din see him online anymore, rarely meet up.
soon we lost contact.
but still he is a dear fren to me.
i still remember, he once told me
' i will make my wife the happiest woman
and our wedding will be like evelyn tan and darren lin'
marrying at the beach.
he would make it the most romantic wedding ever.
but now, everything is just a dream that nv come true.
and today, when stella told me that he passed away.
and when i saw his pic on the newspaper.
i was shock, very.
i can't accept it.
i mean, can u? if one day u found out one of ur fren leaving n not coming back.
and i only realised it today.
18 of NOV.
thats like two months had passed.
i dunno how to describe my feelings now.
i m totally lost.
i dun wanna lose anyone again.
not my loved ones, not my frens, not u.
its painful in the heart.
it hurts to noe that i lost a fren.
why din i read newspapers?
i would have found out much earlier.
i hate what i m feeling right now.
why? why is it always until u lose something
and that something will nv come back
den u realised u actually treasure that thing alot?
and the worst part
is when u found out u got no chance to tell him that u treasure our friendship.
u cant tell him u love him anymore?
and thats when u realised how important he is to you.
too late.
what u lost will nv come back.NEVERvanessa, jinwei, peishan, xiaoshi, xinying, i love you pple alot. really alot.yufen, frens forever.frens ard me, i do treasure ui nv leave my family.
i dun wanna lose u pple. not in this life.idunwannaloseutoo.notanymore.ilearnt.
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