My Stories
Friday, February 18, 2005
8:34 PM
it's seven days to hell..i dun dare to pin high hopes on getting good results.
but i dun wan to get results that no one wants to.
when someone says results are going to be out on the
25th,
it does not seems near to the date.
but when someone says results are out on
next fri,
it really makes me worried.
myheartwillpopoutsoon.i have been thinking where will i go if i din make it.
what will happen to my future?
i admit that i din really put in all my efforts
i dont feel so.
people come asking me if i got confidence
i'm dumbed.
no words came out.
then they asked me if i know how to do the papers.
i answer them--i dunoo if i know the answers or dunoo the answers.
n they say die .
i know.
went out with xiaoshi jinwei xinying stanley n benson.
we went tp without jinwei n benson.
the open house was just normal.
not as great.nothing really special.
jus taking a look at my frens and their bfs.
they can be so loving at times.
until i m really envy of them.
but half of the time they are having arguements.
and most of the time i can only shake my head.
this is something why
i dun wan to be attached now.
and why i started to get sick n tired of guys.
getting attached may not be a good thing.
i dont have the strength to
give in so much again.
i dont have the guts to
fall in love again.
and to be
saying sorrie for something i din do.
wont have to stand
modern guys' pettiness n jealousy.
dont have to
feel guilty after looking at other guys.
dont have to be '
caged'.
i'm lost.
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