My Stories
Friday, January 14, 2005
1:32 AM
today is my off day, yeah!
longing for it le.
i'm seriously tired of working.
firstly, no time for tv
secondly, no time for frens
thirdly, hardly get to talk to my brothers
fourth, no time for me to sort out my
feelingssss
i' still in doubt of wad to do.
jus feel that staying single will still be the best
single and not available
will that be alright?
it sure do get me envy my frens seeing them how loving with their bfs.
past memories do flash back, but i noe its over.
no pointt.
well, i admit i m unfair to the others.
they do tell me too.
but there is jus a knot in my heart, that needs to be untie first.
possible reasons why i m not ready
1. i still haven got over him
2. i m afraid of going into a relationship again
3. i m confused over choosing one from all.
these reasons are enough to kill me.
actually one is eunf.
so which one is it?
now, i cant live without frens.not a bf.
if one day to choose, going out with fren or bf.
frens come first le.
but, my frens are always with thier bfs.
some even worse,-- oblivious to their surroundings
which make me even worse, even craving to get a bf soon.
but i noe, it is not possible.
i m jus seventeen this yrs. in fact, only sixteen.
how long can a relationship last if i go into one now.
6 yrs? 8 yrs? until we get married?
only if thats possible.. i will consider.
i dun wanna get hurt anymore, nor do i wan to hurt someone.
i jus feel that, treasuring the ones ard me
NOW is more important.
my frens, my family, my relatives...
i cant afford to lose them..
time for frens gathering is getting lesser and lesser.
the time when we can meet together and hang out together as a group in six
will probably during the result day.
wad my senior says is right.
it is now in the modern days, wad century is it .. why shuld i care abt hurting u or me.
a relationship that cant work out, break up n be frens.
why be like enemies, when we once loved each other deeply.
its not harm giving a try.
but frens, i have given my priority to you.
you come first now.
i m not thinking of dating another guy soon.
i jus need some help.
help to talk me out of my fear.
frens, where are you..
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