My Stories
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
11:59 PM
qing ai de.. happie birthday!!! =)
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11:56 PM
i know, it's you..
it will be you...
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004
1:02 AM
is it you?
is my feelings right?
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Monday, December 27, 2004
1:36 AM
off day today!
and went shopping!yea! finally..
finally i got the time to..
bought two tops, from hang ten.
not really love it alot, but since 50% store wide,jus buy lo.
i wanna get a top.
actually not really a top.
jus a cloth, thats with holes n jus hang ard ur body de..
its difficult to describe it here.
i wan that for new year!
which sweet guy will get it for me?haha..
went tampines mall with my parents n cousin
shop ard, went starhub look for phone.
in the end never buy cos my dad waiting for his 100 dollars voucher.
think i will jus get samsung E600C
use for another one year n change again.
i m sucha spendthrift!
anyway, saw jianwen on the bus today.
jus knew that he work in tm today.
nv see him, haiz.
plan to get a bonia or santa babara bag n a carlo rino wallet n a sembonia shoes.
see, i like to spend so much money,haiz..
that's why i wanna marry a rich guy n be a tai tai..haha.
but too bad, no guy wans me now..='(.. =P
i need to enjoy my singlehood for few months first.
but still not use to it la, who cares..
tml have to start work again, bored bored bored..
gotta go.. bye!
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Saturday, December 25, 2004
11:20 PM
jingle bells!!!
christmas has arrived, new year wil be next..
times flies... i m going to be 17 le..
yeah!
ytd was the bull's birthday
today is christmas..
had work ytd but still went to meet with with my frens.
then they made me so pissed off being late.
den wan me to walk with the 'crazy' pple to somerset
then in the end have to go heeren meet up with the rest.
anyway, everything pissed me off ytd.
first it was the stocks in the store.
keep committing suicide, have to put them back one by one.
den, frens so late.
next, my parents wans me to get home early(no way!).
and my bro had to tag along cos he dun wan to go home..
everywhere was pple jam.
some of us got lost halfway through.back still.
den meet up with kim meng n his frens.
made us walk n walk like our legs were made off wood
all the plans had to be cancel cos of several reasons.
in the end everybody was okie with walking to esplanade.
AGAINNN, i was alone.
this time round, three couples..
one was oblivious to their surroundings
another was throwing temper with each other.
lucky i still got one more who was talk n accompany me thru..
but how long will it last..i do will feel bad not letting them have their time alone.
seeing three couples, one on each sides was terrible..
piggybackings were worse.
anyway, they are couples right.
in the end jus thot of alot alot of things in my mind.
carlo went saying something like if herman n michelle still together will be good, then blah blah blah.(not in the mood to listen)
ya.. if only we haven broke up............
it'sss the past
was so tired when we reached esplanade.
n the worst was i had to work the next day (today)
took a cab home ard 5 something.
slept at six something n wake up at eleven..
had to rush for work.haiz, one word--boring
anyway, i sort of enjoy myself, spraying at pple..
n got really angry when a guy went walking straight towards my chest..
he did it purposely.i guess.
so pissed off.
n it was me who always get spray at, not my frens.
noe why?
cos my frens are with their bfs.. simple.
pple aim at gals only.. n it means gals w/o guys beside her.
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Friday, December 24, 2004
2:21 AM
stanley's birthday le..
happie birthday bull..
finally u can guang ming zhen da walk inside pool centre le..
finally one more choice of movie for u to watch le..
haha..
today's work was boring..
sales was so bad in the afternoon.
but at least at night it catch up..
*grins*
tml is christmas eve le.
the poor me still have to work..
*sian*
haiz.. i dunoo if my mum will allow me to stay overnight with my frens.
hope she will, jus hope..
but on christmas day, i have to work..
if i stay overnight, i might be to tired to work another day..
wad m i suppose to do!!
really wish i can stay..
why am i keep staring at him?
why do i always wish that he will be there.?
why do i fel disappointed not seeing him?
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004
11:07 AM
i'm so bored a work yesterday.
anyway, saw ms ho there..
she is still da same, with the same kind of sweet smile.
we chatted a while before she went back to shop.
went for dinner with my cousin n xs.
but in xs n my food got mix up.
i got her chicken chop n she got my chicken cutlet.haha.
everyday at work was the same.
pple likes coming to your counter, touch your bags n go.
they nv buy it, after looking at the price, typical singaporeans.
well, there is this part-timer who i noticed quite long le..
always the cashier i went to..
HE is average-looking, looks honest, kind..
never talk to him before..
but he is the guy who i feel comfortable after seeing him.hah!
anyway, gotta go to work soon..
signing off~
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
2:40 AM
working no end since dec 16..
and it was so bored down there..
taka was like empty..
dunoo where the pple went to...
anyway, my next off-day is on the 26th, yea!
perharpsss, it's time for me to rest a while..
buy some clothes, do some shopping..
i miss those days man!
these few days were like working and working..
and guess the worst part about working as a promoter:
to see all types of faces given by your customers.
i met losta them!
some were so fussy,
some went rounds n rounds of taka n still not knowing what they wan to buy.
some were such easygoing ones,
some were like 'i'm your customer, it's your right to serve me' (prouddd?)
my bad luck to get them huh?
was really so tired from working..
it's eight hours of standing
and eating dinner alone, which i hate it so much..
and the food there ARE so expensive
imagine one plate of duck rice cost $4 and a bottle of drink cost $2
how much will you spend in a week? hah!
anyway, was lucky that i bought my galfrens' christmas presents early in m'sia
dun have to worry abt them now..
what to worry now is that bull's birthday cum christmas present
and some others frens' christmas present..
had to go shop for their present during dinner breaks soon.
but the stupid security rules in taka was so troublesome..
had to come out with some clever ideas to hide them in order not to go thru the troublesss..
oh ya, i met maia, lendra n daphne at cineleisure today when i went for dinner=)
saw maia smoking (knew it), n daphne was so cute!!
but din went to call them la, i mind my own business haha..
i miss my galfrens!!
miss the school too!!!
miss the OLD days.. really!
and i miss you=) everyone of you..
frens, tell me how are we going to spend christmas eve soon okie..
i need to plan out my time, be organise!
but it's all craps.. haha..
its 2.38am now and i m still blogging..
have to get up for work at 2.30 tomorrow..
better get some rest now.. i'm sooooooooo tired..
anyway, i like my new blogskin!
some kind of attitude ah, gal =P
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Friday, December 17, 2004
1:03 AM
went happily to sentosa today
but home in a bad mood..
met xy n stan on the bus..
saw mr foong, our ex-physics teacher, he din recognise us..
met jw,ben n alvin n went to sentosa..
went to the beach, had lots of fun..
swimming, playing ard..
some couple nearly got drown..haha.
anyway, we lost benson shirt la.. SOS..clap hands la..
we having gals talk in the sea when the hide tide came..
then we got swept away n dunoo who is holding who shirt..
stan shirt was in xy hand but ben one dunoo go where la..
anyway, he say let the pirates have it la.. so nvm..hehe..
went to seoul garden for steamboat..
so damn freaking expensive leh.. haiz..
never mind la, once a while only.
eat until my stomach got bloated,wah..
den my mum call n spoil my mood.
go home still get scoldings from her.
made my good mood become bad mood.
wad the..
dun wish to go into the content.
shutting down..
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004
1:25 AM
i'm back from work!!!!!yea..
work for nine hours.. one hour overtime..
i m waiting for the end of the month where i can get my pay.. haha..
anyway, some pple think i work in the money printing industry..
wan me to give her some of my pay...
haiz, have to treat my frens to some place for dinner or lunch..
that is why it is bad to be someone who earn money..haha..
anyway, work today was okie..
i managed to sell three bags..
no bad ah..haha..
but sales arent good...
taka was like so empty..
i can see from one end to the other..
wonder where the pple go hiding at..
they better come to taka tomorrow..haha..
i seems like forcing them, threatening.. haha..
gotta get some restfor now..
tml still have to work another eight hours..haiz.
shutting downnnnn.............
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
1:50 AM
second day of work...
arghhhhh.... i m in pain...!!!
someone, please give me a leg massage
or not one day i will die of pain..haha..
i managed to sell two bags today.
abit of satisfaction..
to0 bad i got no commision..haha..
but , i m still happie to sell two bags..yea.
went dinner with jw..
at first wana eat ramen.
den too expensive ah, we budget..
den went out of the shop n go to the food court.
oh ya, benson n kia liang were there too.
den benson wanna make fun of us ah..
hum!!!
anyway, i feel sick now lw..
haha... work work work..
gootta work tml too.
byebye..=)
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
11:20 PM
lets talk abt ytd first..
herman was actually at marina south eating steamboat..
we actually were at the same place..
but only den we met each other at the mrt..
wad is this, my dear...
went to taka to work today..
my first day... it wasnt really fun!!!!!
but i learnt quite alot of things.. yea!
it was my first time having to stand eight hours non-stop..
my legs were aching...
i neeed someone to massage me!!!!
who wans to do the job?haha..
i got blisters in my legs now..
so bad.. sob...
one thing i m happie with myself..
i actually managed to sell a very expensive bag today..
yeah!!!
n i did earn money myselffff..
i'm tired, having headache..
terrible though..
shutting down...
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1:18 AM
went down town again with juli, xy n stan..
we went shopping from orchard to bugis..
it was so so funnn.............
i love it, had lots of laughter n fun all the way..
juli is a very nice gal, fun ot hang out n all.
went to find van at wheellock..
say hello n went to bugis le.
promise to wait for her for dinner..
den she called n ask if we wanna go for steamboat.
everybody was fine with the idea..
went to take photos two times..
n we walk to city hall mrt.(for fun)
oh yes, i bought my black pants for work.. yea!!!
went for steamboat..
well, it was not bad quite nice.
we were all bloated after eating everything..
haha... there goes my ten bucks.
haven even start working i spent so much..
in total i bought:
a handphone pouch
a giodarno jeans
a black pants
wow, thats alot of money.
i need to find a rich man n marry off soon..haha.
i need someone to be my ATM!!!!!
on the way home, saw herman in the train..
its him again..
he told me he nv see me n xy..
do u believe?
we were jus in the next cabin..
msg him too.
but his reply was so so cold..
i hate it... i hate him..
why must he be like this..
spoil my mod for whole day.
maybe he shuld listen to "the reason"
he shuld learn to explain n say sorrie..
forget abt it..
i m moving on!!!
i swear!!! i wont let my frens down..
it is his loss....
his loss.. not mine..
if he wans to do this, FINE!
but ,i miss him..
i'm sorrie..
anyway, going to work tomoorrow..
i dunoo how life will be.. haiz..
terrible.
but i will work hard n earn money..
i will..
good luck michelle..
jia you!
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
1:20 AM
went to town today....
was fun... haha...
downtown..everything's waiting for u...hehe..
brought xs n wj for job interview..
they had injection also but both say not painful.
but den, i that day take de so painful...
aiya, work in the food industry muz take jab one..
met xy n stan..
we walk ard in taka, wisma..
den i did sth very 'chiu'
i go giodarno, take the jeans from the dunoo where la.
dne when i wan to hang back, alot of jeans drop down
including the 'hang thing'.
den the xy ah, laugh until so loud, like nobody business.
i laugh at myself until my face become red red..
wah. so pai seh eh..
den stan turn to be chiu..
wan to look at xy photo....
jumpn dance ard without knowing got customer behind him at famous amos..
dne he scared the customer, look at him..haha.
so funnie eh..
sure do have lots of fun..
went to meet van n cl.
we went to take photos..
but that cl, dun wan ah..
force him to take..
take until the pic so funnie.
me. wj, xy, stan also take another one.
so cute eh.
long time nv took photos le.
we went to play pool later.
suddenly my pool sucks....
yucks..=P
got a real great news today.
carlo n nat are together..
so happie for them...
now, m very happie for my frens.
xy got her bull, stan..
stan got his chicken, xy..
jw got her bicycle, benson.
benson got his dog, jw..
van got her 'erm erm'
'erm erm,' got van..
carlo got nat..
nat got carlo..
perfect lovers family.
happie for u all.
at least all my frens got good guys to take care of them.
these four guys, better not bullie them.
i will be the first to kill u..
understand???!!!!
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Sunday, December 05, 2004
11:37 PM
u claim you noe me, do u really?
maybe u do, but u dun understand me..
one thing i noe for sure..
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10:27 PM
why cant i stop dreaming of you, you, you!!!!!!!
what the hell am i doing??
i know i m not thinking of you..
i am not!
i din!
why, why are u always appearing in my dreams.
i m suppose to have sweet dreams all nites.
not u in it, u torture me like hell..
all the dreams with u in it, we were so happie..
but the more happie we were or i were in the dreams, the more torturous it is for me.
cant u jus keep still in your slp,
not walk ard into my dreams.
wadever i pictured was the past..
all my plans, my imagination were destroyed.
u are the culprit..
stop can u?
u are hurting me more............................
i try to keep myself busy all day..real busy.
n i swear that u nv came into my thoughts all days..
is it because of this...
u chose to appear in my dreams.
wad the use of it..
you wont stop torturing me right.
the more hurt i m, the more happie u feel, is that right?
i miss him
i dun wan to miss him.
i wanna hate him..
but i really do miss him..
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
1:58 PM
yesterday had a chat with my cousin..
talk abt life n all.
we both conclude that guys cannot be trusted with our feelings.
even my male cousin says so..
guys, why cant u all prove us wrong.. haiz..
i m going crazy soon...
guess wad happen again...
i dream of him again.. its always him.
sorrie justin, i tried to do wad u ask me to, but i cant...
wad the hell am i doing..
why am i dreaming of him in alternate days..
why do i have him in my dreams n not other pple..
i dreamt of him, smiling at me, kissing me, talking to me..
in that dream, we broke up le.. but why u keep coming to me.
wad are you trying to tell me..
wad dun u let me go...
i cant even have a goodnight slp..
everytime i have to wake up feelnig so terrible..
cos i know wad happen in my dream is jus a dream..
n the dreams were so real..
three times, u appear three times le..
u jus wont let me go..
i will wait..
either till i forget our love..
or i will wait, till u are ready to accept me as new again...
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Friday, December 03, 2004
11:05 PM
i m having extreme gastric pain now.. painnn...............
really cant stand it..
i jus ate my dinner n the pain started already..
i think that something is really wrong with my body.
arghhhhhhhhhhh..........
haiz.. my dad wans me to work as a promoter for his company.
shuld i?considering in process...
either at taka or at parkway....
where so much pple flowing in the shopping mall...
haha..
i need to make myself as busy as possible.
i wont think so much of him den.
but,,,, he appear in my dreams.
wad is he trying to do..
why keep coming to find me..when u wan a clear break.
do u noe how much i miss u..
how much it takes me to have the courage to leave singapore jus like that.
every day hoping that u will ask me back..
but u never.
sorrieee....
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2:17 AM
i jus heard from pple alot of things..
how pple feel abt certain things..
n it made me really angry with you..
can pple tell me wad is love to all of u?
is love jus months of courtship?
or is it jus a way to get loneliness out of you?
or jus to tell pple u can get a partner so easily?
is it like this?
why do u love face so much.
is your face more important than a person who love u so much?
is it so important to keep your dignity, your face, n lose someone u love?
without ur dignity, n have a good partner.. isnt it better.
certain things no one noes, not even him.
everybody jus will tell me 'it takes time to heal'
yes, it do, but do u all noe the amount of hurt in this period of time..
how it takes for me to disconnect with his life..
during the period of prelims to o level to.........
i have been telling myself, picturing, imagining the times we will spend after o's..
i tell myself that i will make amendments to him..
after o's, i will go everywhere n anywhere he wans..
i will acc him out whole day.
n even tell myself to spend a night out with him..
i picture myself going out with him, everything i planned, in my heart..
wana give him several surprises.
but, everything was too late now.. how i hope it wasnt..
n the hurt when he ask for it.
the hurt when u see everything u plan out destroy like a bad dream..
the hurt when he broke all his promises..
it was worse than us being together n his so called 'torturing' me..
i rather he 'torture' me..
i know how unfair i was to my frens..
i'm really sorrie..
but.. i jus love him..
u cant stop love..
you cant force me..
i was terribly hurt , thats all i can tell you..
why do pple care so much abt dignity, 'faces'..
now, in me, i contain love as well was hatred..
you can dun love me, but you cant stop me from loving you..
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Thursday, December 02, 2004
9:25 PM
me.. i m doing well here...
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Wednesday, December 01, 2004
9:58 AM
jus watch a 21 drama series with my cousin - love storm
the one where zai zai, vivian hsu acted in it..
the show was sooo touching.
it tells me what love is..
what i encounter now is not anything.
far far cannot be compared to them..
love is when u are willing to sacrifice your life for the precious person.
love is when no matter what happens, you will be there for her..
love is when whatever u do, u first think of her..
love is when two person can go thru all the ups n downs together till the enddd...
what is mine anyway...
yes, i m willing to do all the things above, but does he?
will he ever sacrifice his lfe us to save me.
is he willing to go thru the ups n downs with me for whatever happens?
if u are, thats love, u are the right guy for every gal..
although it is jus a drama series, but some parts of it can be so real..
until i started to ask myself if i can find a guy like this..
if only i can..
n if only someone can let me love him, jus love him forever.
remember all couple,
de dao ta bing bu dai biao yong you ta
understanddd?
if u got anything to say to the ones you love..
better say it rght now, cos another day, u might find him or her with someone else.
n lose them forever..
i dreamt of him again..
dreamt of him msging me,smiling at me, asking me to call him..
but i jus cannot get into the dream when i call him
i dunoo what will happen.
how i wish i can jus stay in those dreams..
why do u have to follow me to malaysia..
why dun you let me off..
n appear in my dreams being so so nice..
i rather it be the opposite..
but i noe, impossible..
you are not my hero..
but i jus wanna love you.
i love someone who i shuld not love..
but i duno why, i jus love you..
frens, tell me how..
i'm sorrie...
where is my hero?!!
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