My Stories
Friday, December 03, 2004
2:17 AM
i jus heard from pple alot of things..
how pple feel abt certain things..
n it made me really angry with you..
can pple tell me wad is love to all of u?
is love jus months of courtship?
or is it jus a way to get loneliness out of you?
or jus to tell pple u can get a partner so easily?
is it like this?
why do u love face so much.
is your face more important than a person who love u so much?
is it so important to keep your dignity, your face, n lose someone u love?
without ur dignity, n have a good partner.. isnt it better.
certain things no one noes, not even him.
everybody jus will tell me 'it takes time to heal'
yes, it do, but do u all noe the amount of hurt in this period of time..
how it takes for me to disconnect with his life..
during the period of prelims to o level to.........
i have been telling myself, picturing, imagining the times we will spend after o's..
i tell myself that i will make amendments to him..
after o's, i will go everywhere n anywhere he wans..
i will acc him out whole day.
n even tell myself to spend a night out with him..
i picture myself going out with him, everything i planned, in my heart..
wana give him several surprises.
but, everything was too late now.. how i hope it wasnt..
n the hurt when he ask for it.
the hurt when u see everything u plan out destroy like a bad dream..
the hurt when he broke all his promises..
it was worse than us being together n his so called 'torturing' me..
i rather he 'torture' me..
i know how unfair i was to my frens..
i'm really sorrie..
but.. i jus love him..
u cant stop love..
you cant force me..
i was terribly hurt , thats all i can tell you..
why do pple care so much abt dignity, 'faces'..
now, in me, i contain love as well was hatred..
you can dun love me, but you cant stop me from loving you..
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