My Stories
Saturday, August 28, 2004
11:04 AM
well..i knew something bad was going to happen.. my instinct...when ms soh keep us up after sch... i got a really bad feeling..thats why..i turn so moody.... n guess wad is it.. two guys fought...wad is that..
n never mind.. when i heard of it from his frens... i rushed all the way from sch to the hawker, with severe cramps in my stomach... see him.. i almost cry out..his right eye.. swollen... abit.. i knew he got into a fight.. but he jus dun wan to admit.. he ask his frens to kept it from mi.. but he nv knew i knew abt it before i saw him..
yes.. i m angry.. i m upset.. i m disappointed... he dun noe...i m hurt.. does he noe? does he care? he got mi really worried.. how is he goin to answer to his parents if they got to noe.. n the teachers?? i noe this will be all over the staffroom by now... i dun wan to hear him making a public apology.... have he thot abt my feelings when he started fighting? does he noe how much pain will be in my heart? i guess he chose violence to solve the problem.. can he not fight anymore???
i got quiet all the whole afternoon... moody as well (sorrie xy.. sorrie van)... suffering the pain..in both my stomach n my heart.... but he dunoo wad happen to mi.. keep asking mi why... i jus look at him sadly.... shook my head.. n turn away... i noe i have to control my emotions.....
why do guys have to fight???????? do violence solved all things??? it make it worse!!!!! i dun understand why... this is so so bad... wad is so good abt punching each other n making each other injured... is it fun to see blood all over... he doesnt deserve the punches.. i dun deserve the hurt too...
they are all sorts of stories abt... which one of them is real?? staring incident... pointing middle finger... heard abt how he got beaten... n how he beat the other one...its so so scary.... n half of the sch saw the fight... n wad will happen next??? i tried to put on a smile... but it is not the same in my heart.... i try to be happie.. how long can i be? no one can assure mi this type of thing wont happen again.. no one can assure mi he wont get injured again.. no one can assure mi.....
guys.. u are really a DISPPOINTMENT.... why cant you all understand violence dun solve things n it make it worse?? when will u noe.... when will you ever thot abt how your love ones will feel when they got to noe it... spare a thot for them... it really hurts them... to see you injured all over... all of you say.. it is not painful..... but.. u can bluff everyone... except them.. they noe exactly how.... n the pain u feel... is not worse than the pain they feel...
you noe.. the more you love them.. the more hurt u r.. the more pain you feel.. n its true... do you guys bear to let you love ones feel all these pains n hurts? we are gals.. GALS got feelings.. they care for you more than anything n everything... so why do these...
please... dun fight anymore le hao ma?? can u promise mi (if 'you' ever see this page).... make peace okie?? if u have any problems.. jus confide in me... if you got anger in you.. throw it on mi... i be your punching bag...but.. dun hurt youself.. n in turn hurt me again hao ma?? you can scold mi for everything... i wont feel as much hurt... but.. seeing all the bruises, wounds on you... i.......
i m sorrie for the silent treatment jus now.... i was really upset.. why am i not there to stop you... if i was there.... maybe.. it wont be so bad le... really sorrie... i cant manage to stop the fight.. i jus hope everything is fine.. dun get mi worrie le.. hope there wont be any more troubles.... talk to me.....
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